Lots of Random Thoughts and Preferences

It's Fall Break! I have been living it up I promise! I love my quiet apartment and my even more quiet campus. It is almost silent and my noisy neighbors are gone too. Finally, I can actually relax and enjoy life. Other than catching up on my reading,I have actually been getting out of my apartment. I have been working out this semester and I enjoy it immensely. I never should have stopped doing it. Let's see, I am a huge fan of smoothies.... blueberry heaven is the way to go-- I recommend it to anyone interested in trying a smoothie...
Later I may venture into Chattanooga with CeCe and Cassondra. I have no idea what we will do once we get there. By the way, I hd to go buy some floss last night and decided to chance it and try a new thing. Well, I bought this floss brush by reach and it is incredible. It makes it so easy to reach the back teeth ( I know, I am pleased by th little things-- my friends mention it often).
By the way, I am experimenting with some vegitarian dinners... would anyone like to brave this new world with me? Lol. (Come on, Jessie..haha)
Well, I have an appointment- later!

Procrastinating

Early this evening I decided that I should begin my homework-- you know, be a productive student and actually act as if I deserve my Government aid! I know, I know it is my duty to be zealous in my studies. Regardless, I have a lot of stuff to accomplish tonight. I especially need to study for my exam that is on Monday night. Tomorrow afternoon I intend on going home (maybe) to see my family. I really miss them.
Besides this, I am really just enjoying being here in my apartment alone this weekend. I'm not going to lie... I was a little nervous about it in the beginning. However, in the end, my stubborn streak came out and I survived. LOL
I really wanted to Blog to say something great and profound... this usually happens after I get an emotional high (which doesn't happen that often). I watched While You Were Sleeping tonight. It is a crazy emotional movie that gets me going every time, kind of like Sleepless in Seattle. I always want to write out my emotion afterwards...
And sometimes I cry. And it's not always because of a love story... no, sometimes it's a comedy....or a tragedy... or even a sci-fi movie. For instance.... I cried in Madagascar. Why would someone cry in a comedic cartoon you may ask? Or, I cried in Star Wars 3. And relationally, I also learned to despise Anakin in that movie as well. Those poor little padawans. I will never forgive Him for that. Poor Padme!

Anyway, those kinds of things seem to bring the emotions out in me. lol
I had a great evening... except for the fact that Tennessee LOST to GEORGIA!!!!

Goodbye USA, Hello Japan?

I have decided to keep my Psychology major and possibly stay only a semester longer at Lee.... However, I might be going to Japan this June to get a couple of Psych class credits...

I am going crazy with the excitement of the possibility! I'll keep the blog posted with updates and thoughts...

Now I've just got to make sure I will have the money to do it!
Keep me in your prayers!
Roxie

Change Isn't Always A Bad Thing

Well, my life is interesting to say the least. I think I will just leave it at that. I can't tell you how much I miss my MDT friends. It is really disappointing that we don't seem to have that much in common anymore. I know that I have changed a lot in the past year and most of those changes happened while I have been away from them. I can say that I am now a more confident person and independent person than I was before. And I know not to settle for less than God's best- which is kind of incredible!
However, this does not mean that I don't want to continue to work on those relationships with my MDT friends- actually I think this gives us a better opportunity to grow as friends and as Christians. Maybe together we can learn what this "Christian life" is all about. I know I don't know how to do it all. Maybe we could be an encouragement to each other... and actually PRAY for one another. Huge concept there.
Well, big Mid-term tomorrow and convocation is ending in the morning... it has been an interesting one to say the least.

Pulling My Hair Out!

Today has officially been one of the longest of my life. And it's not over yet! It's five pm now but I have to go to convocation at 7 pm. I have been going and going since 7:00 am this morning. :Sighs: I just neede to get that out. Phew! I feel better already.
Well, I have lots of homework to accomplish in the next two hours....
I will be blogging about something more meaningful next time... hopefully!

Give Me Your Eyes

Looked down from a broken sky
Traced out by the city lights
My world from a mile high
Best seat in the house tonight
Touched down on the cold black tile
Hold on for the sudden stop
Breath in the familiar shock
Of confusion and chaos
Are those people going somewhere?
Why have I never cared?


Give me your eyes for just one second
Give me your eyes so I can see
Everything that I keep missing
Give me your love for humanity
Give me your arms for the broken hearted
The ones that are far beyond my reach
Give me your heart for the once forgotten
Give me your eyes so I can see


Step out on a busy street
See a girl and our eyes meet
Does her best to smile at me
To hide whats underneath
Theres a man just to her right
Black suit and a bright red tie
Too ashamed to tell his wife
Hes out of work
Hes buying time
are those people going somewhere?
Why have I never cared?


Ive Been there a million times
A couple of million eyes
just move and pass me by
I swear I never thought that I was wrong
Well I want a second glance
So give me a second chance
To see the way you see the people all along

Give Me Your Eyes by Brandon Heath


Somehow in the midst of school and Ukraine and life, I missed this song coming out. But wouldn't you know that this song describes everything I have been feeling for months now? God has been showing me little by little what he wants from me. What I need to be doing for Him. How could I never see what was right in front of me?
I want to love people they way He wants me to. Not superficiallly, not half-heartedly. Completely and fully love people. So many people are hurting....
I want to start over and show others that God loves them, that God wants them in His family. My prayer is that God never lets my heart become cold and distant towards His people.

My prayer is that God will give me His eyes. Give me a heart for those who are hurting. Those are alone. Those that have no one.

What! Is that Wilbur?!

Today was week two of my pig dissection... not exactly the highlight of my week. However, I realized that once I let myself become immersed in my task... Well, I forgot that I had my hands inside a dead baby pig. Instead I got to really take a look at some very vital organs and really understand the body. Since the human body much resembles the pigs body... it was a very good comparison.

We named our pig Bianca. Yes, she is a girl. I was really wanting a boy but it didn't work out. If she had been boy.... I wanted to name her Reginald. Such a noble pig name, don't you think?

Anyway, I am sure that I will never quite see bacon the same way again.

Not that I am a fan of pig foods anyway.

Moving on... today my apartment got cable... and all of a sudden, my little apartment felt like a real home. I think it was that in combination with the last couple of things we added to our living room... like the entertainment center. That was a great addition... and we were finally able to take the tv off of that little table.

Now all we have to do is hang some things on the walls... it is really bare and makes me feel like I live in an institution...or at least a place that doesn't allow things on the walls... which isn't at all inviting.

Tomorrow I have an exam... I should be studying for that.