Thinking about the summer

Tomorrow I move out of my apartment. I am really sad about this because it means that I have to share a room with my little brother for the rest of the summer. I love my family but I know that this will mean that I have no where to go to be alone. And I really enjoy my alone time.
Good news is that Laura safely delivered her baby yesterday. Eight lbs of baby. Amazing. She named him David Christopher. I can't wait to see his adorable little face!

I really would enjoy having a job this summer. I would love to have one. But I know that getting one for the remainder of the summer will be close to impossible. The only good news is that I will be able to spend some quality time with my sisters. We haven't been able to hang out much this summer... considering I was in Ukraine in May and now school in June..
My one hope is that I do not go completely insane while at home. I mean, its just two months. Two whole months. This is one of the moments that has me wishing I had friends all over the country so I could just "pop" in for a little visit.
How am I going to survive? Ah!

Stephenie Meyer did this to me

I am an addict. I realized this today. I do not understand why I am so infatuated by Stephenie Meyer's Twilight Saga. And the longer I wait for the final book to come out, the more frustrated I become. What is happening to me? I love books but I have never been one to mope and go crazy for a book to come out. I mean, I literally have become one of those people who count down the days for the book to come out. Forty days. I am going crazy! And then waiting for the movie has me going crazy too! December! That's a long way off. It better be true to the book or I will scream. And if Edward and Bella don't get up together forever in the final book- Breaking Dawn- I will go insane. Stephenie Meyer wouldn't do that, would she? I sincerely hope not, because if she doesn't keep them together, I will never read another one of her books. Ever. Do you believe me when I say that I am addicted? I dream about Edward. All the time. He is amazing and wonderful and I want him to be mine. So completely and fully that I want to throw away all my promises to myself to enjoy single life. I do enjoy it very much actually, but when I think of Edward... Oh, if he were real, I'd have a hard time controlling myself around him. I would probably be just like Bella... chasing after him with no regard to my own life. I told my sister Allison a few days back that Edward could bite me any time. And it is completely true. I guess the reason why I am blogging like this is because I reread Twilight today and fell in love with Edward all over again. And I am in my apartment alone and I am going crazy because I have no one to talk to about Edward. Seriously, I am surprised and pleased that Meyer kept him pure and his virtue intact. People need to see that. They need to see that being clean and without past lovers is a good thing to have when you come into marriage. This is another reason why I enjoy her books so much. And Bella and Edward struggle with staying pure, which is true with everyone, and I am pleased that her books are so real. Despite the fact that they are about vampires and werewolves. The question I keep asking myself is, What will I do when the books are finished? How will I move on? A friend of mine made the comment that Stephenie Meyer could take this series and continue it forever. I mean, think about, Edward has eternal life. And hopefully, Meyer will give Bella the same.
The only thing that could make this series better would be them somehow finding Jesus, finding redemption. Impossible as it may seem, I would like to think that they could be forgiven just as we are. Since vampires are not real, I guess it doesn't really matter in the whole scheme of things. It would be a nice thought however, and a great way to end the book. But whether or not Meyer has any intention of adding this God factor is beyond me. She does mention God often though and it makes one wonder if she has something up her sleeve.
To finish my entry I would remark upon the Edward that has been cast for the movie and the Bella too of course. I think that Robert Pattinson will make a great Edward. He is not exactly how I picture Edward but I don't think that a man who looks like Edward could possibly exist anyway. Bella is going to be played by Kristen Stewart. She is a perfect Bella. Hopefully, I will survive waiting for the movie to come out.And the final book. What can I say, Pray for me? :)

For My Pappaw

My grandfather died last night. He crashed his truck into a bridge. And that was his favorite truck. I cannot tell you how I feel right now. Honestly, there are no words. My grandpa was one of the few people who understood me and accepted me for who I am. He wasn't home on Father's Day when I came by the house. And I never got to see him. And now he is gone. I want him back. I want to go to my grandmother's house and find him sitting on the porch drinking a diet rite talking to my grandmother or working on his latest project. When I came by on Sunday he was out getting a new part for his lawn mower that he was working on. And today I was thinking to myself, "Who is going to fix it now?"
I remember picking pecans off the tree and cracking them open with my pap and eating them while lounging in the yard. I remember going to the grocery store with him and shifting gears in the truck and I remember helping him chop and load wood into the barn for the winter. My grandpa worked hard. And he was such an important part of my life.
And I remember how he loved us. He truly loved us.

And I miss him so much.

I pre-ordered the final book in the Twilight Saga by Stephenie Meyer. Breaking Dawn comes out August 2, 2008 and I already own a copy! I made myself a summer reading list today and I am quite happy about it. I wish I could go out and buy them all today or at least order them on Amazon and receive them by mail within the next couple of days. I would do it in a heart beat if I had a job. Right now I am living off of my money that I have saved from my two jobs during the spring. My parents paid for my summer classes and that meant that I could keep the money I had saved. The bad news is that this all I have to last the summer and I need to go grocery shopping to survivie. Basically, books will have to wait until I go home and have no big bills- like rent. Hopefully I will survive waiting that long. I know, maybe I will go buy a few cheap books at McKay's! Or just check some out from the library...

The Sugar Queen

Today, I read the most delightful book by Sarah Addison Allen. The Sugar Queen was completely amazing and made me feel as though someone actually understood me. I have, of course, felt like the main character Josey many times and have often used books as a way out of my own problems. I am somewhat jealous to find that one of the characters, Chloe, has books appear to her everywhere and that she does not have to pay for her books. I know I spend a fortune on my books and read them so fast that they rot on the shelf for months before I pick them up again to reread them. This has brought me to another topic. I have decided that any house I live in must have a library. I mean, I can make any old room my personal library if I need to, but I am determined that I will have one. It is funny because most girls plan their weddings and find their perfect dress, while I plan my future home... without a man in it. My mom thinks that I am crazy and that college has destroyed me. I rather like myself.

Books, Paris, and Seduction

My sisters came to my apartment this weekend and since I do not have a television.. I finally got them to read a book! A rather shocking phenomenon for one of my sisters. I have started reading the series by Stephenie Meyer. I finished Twilight late last week and have only just started New Moon. I am completely addicted. Edward is my favorite character. I must admit that I am completely seduced by his character. It is wierd because, well, he is ficional. Meyer is amazing, that is all I can say. How she can make a character that tempting is beyond me.

A photo from my trip to Europe last month. Yes, that is THE Eiffel Tower!